Feeling like you’re having a panic attack when you’re not remotely panicking is very strange indeed.It’s very hard to describe what being pill free feels like, but it just feels so REAL.Over the past few years I was starting to get very physical anxiety symptoms at certain points during my pill regulated cycle.
It made me realise that not enough people talk about these issues (which is slightly mental, given how many of us are dealing with them) and that we’d all be better off if we were happy to talk about contraception and periods more openly.
I’ve felt more period pain too, which cracks me up as it makes me feel like I’m literally 14 again.
I’ve used a hot water bottle for the first time in a decade. Flow wise they’re obviously heavier than when on the pill, but they’re not heavy by any means…again I think this is just reflective of my pre-pill days.
Whilst I feel a lot more physically relaxed, I noticed that I’ve also become more intolerant and ragey. It just feels like I’m standing up for myself more and not taking crap from anyone.
The funny thing is though that I genuinely don’t think I’ve been unreasonable with it. I’ll argue back but I won’t regret it, whereas on the pill I might have been very unreasonable about a tiny thing then two days later I’d be begging for forgiveness because I’ve realised I was being completely mental.
So in the spirit of that, I thought I better give a bit of an update on how I’m feeling three months down the line of having kicked my 10 year Microgynon habit.