In the video, posted from the Travelodge in New Jersey where she says she is now living, the 50-year-old said she suffers from three mental illnesses.
“I’m all by myself, there’s absolutely nobody in my life.
We had some turmoil in between and I thought I wouldn’t hear from him again.
Then he initiated contact saying that he’s happy we are still friends and we kind of talked on and off for another week or so.
In other words, he learned how to act if he wants to get rejected by you and he learned how to act if he wants you to chase him.
He invited me to an event he was throwing and after that we started talking almost everyday.
Here’s the tricky part: Now he doesn’t call me as much and when we text he sometimes leaves me hanging mid-conversation.
I want everyone to see what it’s like.” She adds: “Mental illness is a bit like drugs, it doesn’t give a s*** who you are.
Equally what is worse is that the stigma doesn’t give a s*** who you are.” She reveals her suicidal thought, saying: “I have been wanting to go for two f***ing years. “And I’m not going to die, I’m not going to die but still this is no way for people to be living. I’m staying alive for the people that are doing this to me.
“I’m now living in a Travelodge motel in the arse-end of New Jersey. because I’ve walked this earth alone for two years now as punishment for being mentally f**king ill and getting angry that no one would f***ing take care of me.” When O’Connor, a mother of four, lost custody of her youngest child, she made suicide threats, warning Ireland’s Child and Family Agency they would have “a dead celebrity on their hands” if they didn’t reverse their decision.