It also really bothers me that I let him make me feel inadequate (and sometimes still do).
He has some extra weight on him, which didn’t bother me at all, but I now see it as an example of a double standard in which women’s bodies are typically more rigidly scrutinized than men’s bodies.
Now I am with a great guy who is attracted to me for many reasons, but partly because of my body. I used to wear loose, shapeless clothes to hide my body.
We had some of our most amazing sex while I was pregnant.Chloe: Part of the reason having sex with other trans women was important to me early on was that it helped me come to love my own body, too.Seeing them and their body however it was—pre-op, non-op, post-op whatever—as beautiful helped me see my own body as beautiful, too.I spent a lot of money on specially made push-up bras in an attempt to look as close to his standard as I could.Whenever I was naked around him, I was always very aware of my chest and never entirely comfortable.Now I try not to care, but I do occasionally feel self-conscious about it.